I was scared and nervous, steadily walking towards my new classroom. I had prepared my notebook beforehand so that it was easier to introduce myself. I walked into the classroom. I smiled, hiding my nervousness and anxiety. I waited until I was to show my classmates the notebook. A tap on the shoulder signalled me to start. I pulled out my notebook from my bag to see a class full of confused faces. I was worried but kept a smile. I flipped through the notebook showing each sentence. It finally came to the last page. I hesitantly flipped the page to reveal the final sentence, ‘I can’t hear.’ The students were visibly shocked and a confused atmosphere spread throughout the class. Their stares were daunting.
Scene changes to Shouko with a group of other girls
A group of girls came up to me at break time. One of them introduced her self as ‘Miki Kawai’. She seemed nice. I was beginning to have more hope. Just then, she started to giggle looking at the girl behind me. I realised that she me must have said something so I held up my notebook, signalling her to repeat it. She didn’t respond but I didn’t think much of it. I turned to Miki who wrote on my book, asking if I had a nickname. I replied with, ‘Sho.’ It was easy for me to say and they seemed to like it.
Middle of a lesson
One of the girls I was with before asked for my notebook. I had learnt that her name was Ueno. I willingly gave it, thinking about how I could become friends with her. She was different to Miki but she seemed to be nice.
Singing lesson It was my first time singing with others. I didn’t know how to sing. I looked around to see when the others started to sing so that I knew when to start. Miki looked like she had started so I tried my best and went for it. Everyone stopped. I was confused and scared, I felt like i was dieing but I kept smiling. I never let my feelings show. I'm already a burden to others so why should I trouble them with my feelings? Miki signalled me start singing when she does which I knew was going to be difficult. It was obvious that my peers were upset that I’m in the choir. I kept going as if nothing had happened, I had to power through. Last lesson for the day(Reading) 'It's finally the last lesson', I thought. We were reading a book together with each person reading a bit each. I was tapped on the shoulder which I had realised was the way most of my peers got my attention. I had hoped that the teacher wouldn't pick me as he knew what it would result in. Hesitantly, I stood up to read. I understood the words but reading it out aloud is next to impossible. It was obvious that I didn’t sound normal. I tried all I could, but the strange looks still hurt me. They didn't look to be talking but I knew what they were thinking. I was used to this and I didn’t let any sadness or embarrassment show.